today is may 19th.
exactly one month ago, on april 19th, i woke up early for two finance finals, packed for vietnam, and went out in singapore.
today, on may 19th, i woke up early for work, looked at ppts, and drank two mugs of coffee in cincinnati.
the persistent similarity between these two days would be the fact that on each respective sides of the globe, it was raining, raining, and raining. and of course, i was without an umbrella on both occasions.
i used to think rain was good nap weather, and that rainy days were almost kind of romantic.
now i just think they're annoyingly persistent, cause traffic jams and accidents, and get in the way of the all-time great mood-lifter, sunshine.
maybe i'll learn to appreciate rainy days again someday.
pretty sure i'm having a premature quarter life crisis.
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i really love target. i think it's all around cute, and just walking through a target store puts me in a better mood. yes, maybe that is slightly unhealthy, but hey, it is a better picker-upper than drugs, alcohol, and excercise (yes, excercise).
since realizing how little luggage i can bring with me to relocate to ohio for the next 2.5 months, i've held back from shopping in dallas. it hasn't been difficult, mainly because i tend to still convert the price tags into various asian currencies & become offended or feel an almost insuppressable urge to bargain when the idea of purchasing items even pops into my head.
today, however, i went to target buy something completely practical & non-hedonic (extra large staples for upholstry making, fyi, b/c you know, that's really interesting to share and everything...), but soon found myself with arms full of clothes, waiting in line for the fitting room. SIGH. one item after another (i pulled all these items off of the sale/clearance racks), i started thinking, "GEE! my jeans must have really SHRUNK from the dryer." [the fit of my jeans is how i decide if i've gained weight...and basically, none of them are currently fitting me after five months of buffet-eating] miraculously, however, every piece i picked up today fit loosely, even to the point when i double checked the tags & began thinking that maybe...all the southeast asian eats made me LOSE weight.
my joyous moment didn't last for long though...i came out of the dressing room to show off my new pieces to my mom, who frowned, looked at the tags again, and told me the cold, hard truth. ...i had picked up all sale pieces from the maternity section. SIGH.
i tend to fall asleep in movies quite a bit, and i fell asleep watching indecent proposal with my parents earlier this week (my mom is a huge fan of demi moore pre-ashton days. i guess she's not fully in the know of who ashton is. she just calls him "the younger guy with longer hair"), and i remember i woke just in time for this scene (after my parents had to fill me in on pretty much the entire movie)...
david (woody harrelson), the hubs who agreed to let his wife be with another man (the charismatic & handsome robert redford...) for a night for a million dollars (ah, movie circa '93 when that amt seemed much more & the US dollar was so much more attractive of a currency...), just a fill-in for those who haven't seen/may have also slept through the movie: I thought we were invincible. But now I know that the things that people in love do to each other, they remember. And if they stay together, it's not because they forget. It's because they forgive.
a quote like that, and an episode of HIMYM like this (probably my favorite of season 3 so far) trigger that bit of that hopeless romantic in me (which i think is a contradicting term in itself & another entry in itself).
well. good thing it doesn't take much to return to reality & remember that life goes on when the cameras stop rolling. alas :[ c'est la vie.
3 stops, 2 suitcases filled to the brim & on-the-border of overweight, 1 calendar day - and i am back in the us of a. it's actually been a full week since i've been back in texas. during this week, i've managed to unpack the suitcases that i struggled so long and tediously to stuff and zip, and i even found my way down to austin to see some missed-faces. the past two days, however, i have been embracing my typical home-habits.
every break, i tend to soak up a pinch too much enthusiasm from watching the food network excesisvely and end up actually aspiring to work the kitchen. today i purchased a variety of odd ingredients (can of black beans and nectar, both included in the cart of hodgepodge craving-satisfiers) to create some stellar concoction, whose recipe i envisioned myself penning down in a hippie-bound notebook with browned pages. unfortunately, the reality turn out was several-folds: `1) the brownies i attempted to bake from scratch and with all substituted ingredients (in a meager strive to be healthy sort of way) were awful, just purely awful. silver lining: my mom enjoyed them and has eaten half the pan. i worry for her taste buds, esp since i know she's not one of those "aw, honey, because you baked them, of course i'll eat them" type of mom who bothers to cushion my feelings. they really do taste like mexican food...mushed. i guess in the spirit of cinco de mayo...OLE. eat the brownies, mom, eat the brownies.
a few entries ago, i wrote a couple of absolute riveting [HA] paragraphs regarding my broken electronics. well, many $$$$ down later (sigh), i have replaced the broken with the new, including a blackberry. i am now an official crackberry head. however, having all of my life & its tech support sides synced has its down sides. for example, i used to be excited everytime i approached my computer to check my email. now, i know what emails i get instaneously. the brief excitement from before when i'd click on my gmail bookmark just is not there anymore. i guess the moments away from the internet made me realize how much i appreciate it; now that it's readily available, it's not too special anymore. it's true. i only want what i can't have.
with my suitcases finally empty from singapore, i've begun the process of refilling them for the summer. out come the trinkets & summer dresses and in go slacks, sweaters, and button ups. this entire past year, starting last may, has been filled with packing and unpacking, one after another. through it all, i feel like my head, my heart, and my body are usualy all in dfferent places, one failing to catch up with the others. trying to be and feel fully here, wherever i am, is quite a challenge.
i'm still in singapore, i'm still in austin, and i'm supposed to be in cincinnati in less than a week. maybe everything will piece together by august.
