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3 stops, 2 suitcases filled to the brim & on-the-border of overweight, 1 calendar day  -  and i am back in the us of a.  it's actually been a full week since i've been back in texas.  during this week, i've managed to unpack the suitcases that i struggled so long and tediously to stuff and zip, and i even found my way down to austin to see some missed-faces.  the past two days, however, i have been embracing my typical home-habits.

every break, i tend to soak up a pinch too much enthusiasm from watching the food network excesisvely and end up actually aspiring to work the kitchen.  today i purchased a variety of odd ingredients (can of black beans and nectar, both included in the cart of hodgepodge craving-satisfiers) to create some stellar concoction, whose recipe i envisioned myself penning down in a hippie-bound notebook with browned pages.  unfortunately, the reality turn out was several-folds: `1) the brownies i attempted to bake from scratch and with all substituted ingredients (in a meager strive to be healthy sort of way) were awful, just purely awful.  silver lining: my mom enjoyed them and has eaten half the pan.  i worry for her taste buds, esp since i know she's not one of those "aw, honey, because you baked them, of course i'll eat them" type of mom who bothers to cushion my feelings.  they really do taste like mexican food...mushed.  i guess in the spirit of cinco de mayo...OLE.  eat the brownies, mom, eat the brownies.

a few entries ago, i wrote a couple of absolute riveting [HA] paragraphs regarding my broken electronics.  well, many $$$$ down later (sigh), i have replaced the broken with the new, including a blackberry.  i am now an official crackberry head.  however, having all of my life & its tech support sides synced has its down sides.  for example, i used to be excited everytime i approached my computer to check my email.  now, i know what emails i get instaneously.   the brief excitement from before when i'd click on my gmail bookmark just is not there anymore.  i guess the moments away from the internet made me realize how much i appreciate it; now that it's readily available, it's not too special anymore.  it's true.  i only want what i can't have.  

with my suitcases finally empty from singapore, i've begun the process of refilling them for the summer.  out come the trinkets & summer dresses and in go slacks, sweaters, and button ups.  this entire past year, starting last may, has been filled with packing and unpacking, one after another.  through it all, i feel like my head, my heart, and my body are usualy all in dfferent places, one failing to catch up with the others.  trying to be and feel fully here, wherever i am, is quite a challenge.

i'm still in singapore, i'm still in austin, and i'm supposed to be in cincinnati in less than a week.  maybe everything will piece together by august.